Lack of consistency has followed me since I was a child. That’s why I could never get good grades in school.
I would study for a little while, get tired, and stop. I couldn’t study daily. The work piled up. By exam time, I had mountains of material to cover. I would panic, trying to cram everything into one or two days. It never worked.
My report cards always showed E grades. Every single time.
The Voice in My Head
I started believing I was dumb. That I couldn’t do anything right. My self-talk became toxic: “I am a failure. I can’t do anything in my whole life.”
Those words replayed in my mind for years.
But that was my childhood self. The one who didn’t understand what was really happening.
What I Understand Now
Now I see the truth. The problem wasn’t my intelligence. It was my lack of consistency.
I’ve learned that discipline is just another word for consistency. And this one habit—doing small things every single day—can help you achieve what you want in any field of life.
What I’m Doing Differently
These days, I’m building the habit of consistency. Every morning, I write down the tasks I want to complete. Then I put all my strength—my body, my heart—into finishing them.
Some days I still procrastinate. Old habits die hard. But the next day, I start again. I complete my tasks.
I don’t make big promises to myself anymore. Promises feel heavy, and when I break them, the guilt crushes me. Instead, I just commit: I will try my best to complete my tasks today.
Looking Back
If I’m honest with myself, inconsistency was the reason I failed in school. As a child, I had no idea. I thought something was wrong with me.
But now I understand. Now I’m aware. And I’m finally overcoming this habit that held me back for so long.
The journey isn’t over. But at least now, I’m on the right path.
